It really makes me dizzy. My shitting heart problem -_-. I still can't moving on from him. Yeah, it was 5 years ago and I still remembered him and saved his name on my heart. What a ****.

Anybody should teach me how to move on?? I really will appreciate it if you pleased to teach that to me. Need first aid for my grave grinding heartbreak.. :'(

Hey, actually I never have a special relation with him. I don't know, but the relation that happened between us, totally changed my whole world *dafuq*. Yes, absolutely we had a relation. An usual relation between a chief and his secretary *I'm as a secretary and he is as the chief*. But from this  relation, my heart began, slowly, step by step, fall in love with him. Shucks..!!!

He who adult. He who romantic. He who smile to me every we meet. He who always pay attention to me. He who has dazzling eyes and charming smile. He who can makes my heart melted and beated every I meet him. He who has gergorious voice. He who has enchanting personality. He and just only him, that can makes me feel safe and comfortable. Cozy. Hey, that are the important points. Feel safe, cozy and comfortable. Ahh, wanna feel that he hug me in his warm burly chest #lohh #fancy

Wanna always remember him, huhu *tear*. Keep his name on my freak mind. Imagine that he would say "Will you marry me?" #ahhh *fly to the moon*. But never hope that it will be fact *lie*. Yeah, sometimes I hope it and really really hope that it will be happen in the future. But in the same time, I also feel that it might be impossible. One thing that still can makes me happy. He never makes a special relation with another girl. Perfect!!

Whooaaa, for you, my best guy ever *ngakuuu*. Listen it. Maybe I'm not "the right one" but let me say thanks for every colorfull memory  that you ever gave to me. Thanks for everythings. Thanks for all. Hope you can find She, the right one, who will hold your hand and walk with you in every situation and condition in your life. I pray it for you #nyesek *langsung nangis* #alay

#sorry for the messy grammar. this shitting problem has fucked up my mind for almost 2 years and now it screwed up again #ngenes